damage
Thud thud thud of a hammer on a door
Locked inside I curl up on the floorboards
Ripped shouts in the still heavy air
Splinters flying, sagged in hair
It's always like this, always the fear
Slamming of fists against glass
The hook against skin, it's only a scratch!
Hands curled around cloak hangers
The locks turned, I cry, inside my palm, they snap
The next night it starts with a comment
A bullet on a land mine,
It sets off fists against brick walls
A leap for the window, screaming
I'm fine, I'm fine
I spit shrapnel between lips
Fuck what you think,
And fuck this, whatever this is
Sinking blood into blanket folds
Biting the feeling of being alone
Knife against the unshakeable misunderstood
Curl knuckles to crack bones
Cursing prayers until they sound like home
Thud, crack of hammer on door
Lock falls, three pieces beneath me
With heel I crush them so small I can never see
The damage between me